i won...i won...

aiya...haha...think i'm juz like wat jolyn says...
i cant be angry for too long de...haha
not with kelvin anyway...
(not at my colleagues too of cos...hahaha)

juz like wat she told me to do...
i didnt sms...didnt call kelvin

then when i went for checkup...
he finally called and apologise le
hahaha...

i won...i knew i would...haha...cos its not my fault ma!!!

he gave me false hopes that he would go with me...
then tell me cant go...
and expect me to juz let it down??
sorry...i cannot...haha....
i juz have to make some trouble for you...
to show my existence...!

hahahahahahahhahahah

why dun i understand you anymore...

why dun i understand you anymore...
have i changed so much?? that you become unrecognisable...
or is it the other way round??

i dun seem to know you anymore...
sometimes you seem so distant...
i dunno what are you thinking...
i dunno what are you doing...
i dun even know why is it that everything seems so unimportant to you...
have i juz become so unimportant to you?
or it has all the while been lidat??
juz that i nvr noticed??

can someone pls tell me???

why is it that he seems like the perfect guy ard...
but turn him ard...and he'll juz scold me off...

or perhaps its true that i'm juz too pampered...

u're under stress...yes...i understand
i nvr doubted that fault...
but am i not?!
am i undergoing anything less??
i dun think so right...
at least u can seek refuge at your camp
stay away from everything else...
stay in camp
juz dun book out

but wat can i do??
where can i go??

i used to have sorrows and hid in your house...
now...that seems not possible anymore either...

help me...

someone pls help me...

save me from these...

if getting married and everything else is going to be lidat...
i dun wanna get married anymore...
i dun wanna get married and regret my choice...
are we really too young?!

where have all the initial happiness gone to??!??!?!?

angry...super angry!!!

can someone pls go scold the shit out of my hubby?!
i'm juz super + super angry right now la...
so angry i can juz break out into tears right now...
even though i'm in office...sitting in front of my computer...

he knew it ok...he knew weeks ago that i'm going for the checkup today!
he knew i was going alone...
he said he dun wan me to go alone...
he said he will do sth about it...!

but wat happened...
he juz sat on my words...
and let time run...
till ytd, his officer tell him there's duty to be done today...
then he tell me i juz gotta go alone...
super disappointed and angry ok..!

if he had meant to go with me at all...
even the slightest bit, he would have done something...
he could have taken leave or applied for time off or sth well in advance right?!

well...perhaps gals can nvr understand army...
he said i was unreasonable...and that i dun understand him...

yah...perhaps i really dun understand him that slightest bit...
cos i dunno what's impt to him and wat's not...

he didnt even take leave for the solemnization...
or rather, he's not planning...not even the afternoon leave...
he's juz trying his luck with timeoff...
fine then...if he's doing things this way...
why then, am i getting so worked up?!
i also take time off lo...
why shld i waste my leave lidat...
if timeoff not approved then lagi better...
dun need to get married!!!

gown fitting...

haha...so happy...slept for over 15 hours on sat...
hahaha....nvr slept for so long before...
really nice shiok slp sia!
but too bad for dar dar...
he had to miss the soccer game at boat quay with wei and gang...
cos i was having nightmare...
and he juz couldnt leave me at home...

then hoh...sunday go play mahjong...still the same la...
lost...but ok la...not lose alot...so nvm...haha...
then come home...slp again...

so whole of this weekend...all i can remember is slp slp and more slp...hahaha...

then today after work...met wing and went for my gown fitting...haha...
some pictures of 3 of my gowns...
the bridal...the evening...and the bridal gown for outdoor shoot...hahaha...
try guessing which is which...!
and try guessing my favourite...

a fairytale come true

the past weekend had been great!

it was like a fairytale come true...
the whole weekend had been so wonderful!
especially on friday...

finally...he proposed decently...hahaha...
why do i say decently?
cos we've been arranging for our wedding already ma...
so no doubt i'm definitely gonna marry him...
but he hasn't proposed before!!!

no way am i letting him away with this...

so...finally he proposed...in his comm ball...
really...in the middle of his comm ball...
it was pre-arranged one!!!
and he kept me in the dark all the while...
it was a super pleasant surprise though...
and super romantic...

hahahaa...
juz couldnt stop laughing and smiling for the rest of the weekend...

then sat i couldnt wake up for work at all...so...
took mc and slept for the morning...
went for sushi buffet and then harbourfront...

then sunday...another slacky day...
stay home...slp...watch tv...go ah ma hse for dinner...
that's all!
hahaha...

but end of the day...still so super tired...

even now...also super tired...
and super uncomfortable...
haha...nvm...in good mood still!

so fun...

i'm beginning to love my life more...haha
went with kelvin's parents to choose the wedding package yesterday after work...

think its more or less decided and settled already...
tml morning can go choose my gowns and set date for photo shoot...
haha...

then dinner also almost settled already...left all those nitty-witty stuffs...
muz start on the photo slideshow...
muz decide on the choice of the mcs...
muz start printing invitations...
etc etc etc...

haha...so tiring...but so fun!!

darling know which camp he is being posted into already...
some Selatar camp...and dunno going there to do wat thing yet...
dunno gotta stay in camp or can book out de...
but anyway..i guess...at least after he's posted there...he's an officer already...
shld have a better life than now ba...hopefully for him...

ytd...came back to work after one day mc
saw gina...so tired and haggard...
couldnt help but feel for her...
she's so sad...but cant cry...
i really pray that God will take away her pain
and release her father in the best way He can...
Gina...be strong ok...we'll all be praying for you...and your family

haha...life is getting better!!

as if being a queen is not enough...
i think my luck is changing for the better...haha
hopefully...its gonna continue this way...

anway...i knw when and where my banquet's gonna be held already...
haha!!

guess my previous entry was really like bitter...
haha...
well...if you realise....
i blogged when i was working...
and unhappy things do happen in work...

this morning...we realised i made another stupid mistake in work...
shant elaborate on that anymore...
cos i dun wanna be reminded of it...
was rather unhappy the entire morning tho'...
but anyway...these arent going to affect me n my mood!
nope...not even the slightest bit...haha

but nevermind...went to collect my new contact lenses...
then went to the IT fair at Suntec...
was quite interesting...very packed...and some really good deals...
very tempting prices for the laptop i've been eyeing on too...

then met darling...
went with him to settle his donation card thingy first...
set my date for ROM...
went to see bridal gowns as well...
more shopping tomorrow...

haha...i literally am having anything that i wan...
everywhere...at home...at his place...in office...
haha...
i'm the queen!!!

gotta go bathe and slp now...
haha...
tired liaoz...

congrats to me!

well...i've realised that its fortunate to be marrying the person u love...
and who truly loves you...

and it's actually a breeze...
letting the person who does not loves you go...
which is also the person whom you do not love as much...
at the same time...if this person has brought you only hurt...
and memories of him are all sadness...
then there's no point in remembering him right?! haha!

i simply cant tolerate men who badmouths and bitches about you...
behind you...
after being together...
isn't whatever happened...between the two of them only?
this kinda men isn't destined to have gd relationships or gd women to them...

let's wait and see who will have the last laugh!

people who are waiting to see my marriage fail, you will NOT get your wish!
i think there's only this one person who cant wait to see my marriage fail ba...anyway...
i will be blissfully married...and my marriage will last a lifelong...
your wish will NOT come true!

already decided...the wedding will be held in early lunar 8th month...
so people who are being invited...you will get your invitations soon...
but people living in areas like punggol...sengkang...chances are i dun wan to trouble you...
hahaha!

anyway...darling's bringing me for photo shoot think somewhere later this mth...
cos he say he wants to celebrate my birthday for me...
in a romantic way...haha...
so...i'm not celebrating my birthday...
haha...not sad also...
cos...i'm juz in this blissful mood already!

excited!

hi all! i'm getting married...soon...but dunno when...
haha...
surprised right...
but well....its natural...haha....
afterall, me n my bf have been together for so long already rite...

our parents are meeting for dinner tonight to discuss about details...
and darling is not here with us...
cos he's gotta be in camp...booking out only tomorrow...

talking about darling...he's getting his sword today!!
haha...and next sat is his commissioning parade...happy
*darling...u've finally made it...after 9 long months...*

so friends...close friends will start receiving invitations soon enough...
for those who do not receive...u're just not invited...
haha...dun blame me...
its juz bcos we do not wanna make it too big a thing...